books, stories, writing / May 10, 2017

Strap on your big girl wings and let’s fly

Sometimes you need to strap on your big girl wings and fly solo.  It’s true.  But it is not always easy and it takes the kind of courage you have to dig to the depths of your soul for because being courageous comes with fear.  Fear of failure.  Fear of success.  Fear of what everyone else will say.  The last one is my Achilles.  I’m okay with my choices and my path.  Celebrating it in fact.  Supported by my nearest and dearest but still, it is the opinion of others, of strangers that bothers me.  Their potential opinion at that because so far there is no foundation for it and I’m not even sure if it’s their opinion as opposed to the thoughts they keep to themselves.  See, if they say something to me, I can joyfully tell them about my beautiful journey, the freedom I got from choosing this path and gaining control of my future.  But when they nod politely and walk away to think and judge, that is what bothers me because I don’t want them to, I want them to know that this is absolutely the right path for me.  I did not give up.  I did not sell out.  It just turns out traditional publishing is not my destiny and that is okay.  What I write is not part of the current traditionally published trend.  But do you know what trend it is a part of?  The indie trend.

Ten years ago I could walk into any book store, Kmart, Target, they were my locals, and I would literally walk out with armfuls of books.  Armfuls, I tell you.  I used to keep expecting someone to tap me on the shoulder and say, ‘Excuse me, Miss, that’s too many,’ but now I walk into these shops and I struggle to find something. So not only are they not publishing what I write, they’re not publishing what I want to read.  There’s nothing at all wrong with what they’re publishing, some of it I have even enjoyed from time to time, but the great majority is just not my cup of tea.  So where did all the books go, I wondered.  Who decided on these trends without consulting me, the extreme book buyer.  Then one day I found them.  They’d been sent to the world of indies and there I found my place.  There I realized, I don’t have to wait for some imaginary person in a far away place to decide I was on trend.  The trend was still happening, it was still evolving and it was beautiful, it was just in a different place and these people were doing great things.  They’re writing beautiful stories.  Quality stories.  Because in this modern technological age, there’s nothing you can’t do.  You can pay your own editor.  You can pay your own cover designer.  Get your own pretty interiors and make it happen yourself.  You can take control.  No more waiting by the email for that elusive reply or rejection, no more wishing the phone would ring for months on end, sitting on the edge of your seat, knowing your fate, your hopes and dreams are in the hands of someone you’ve never even met in a little cubicle on the other side of the country or the world.  No more begging at conferences or wearing your lucky undies in the hope it helps.  No more, ‘its really well written but I just didn’t connect.’  No more, ‘I really enjoyed it but I was hoping for something a little more like (insert author I’m nothing like).’

So here I am, big girl wings strapped on and ready to go and I’m so damn excited I just don’t know what to do with myself.  I hope you’ll ride this journey with me, let me know what you think, have conversations and share your stories with me as I share mine with you because that’s why I do what I do, to entertain, to bring joy, to make you brave while you’re sitting on your couch in your jammies, to make you smile, to create conversation and share something with you that has come from my heart and my soul, that I’ve created with love and maybe a little blood and sweat, but the very best kind.

So strap yourself in and let’s go!

2 Comments

  1. Amanda Wilkinson

    I love this a lot. I love that I can finally purchase your words and read them over and over again. I also love that I am not the only person struggling to find something to read. There are books everywhere in every store and I often wondered, why is nothing grabbing me, nothing is interesting me. You have just explained why. I am looking in the wrong places. I am expecting those faceless people to choose what to publish for me to read but my expectations are not being met. Thank you for explaining it. And a HUGE thank you for persisting and pressing on with your passion, enabling us all to finally pick up a book that is full of words and stories we are enjoying!

    11 . May . 2017
  2. Hayley Morton

    Good on you Tamara. I salute your tenacity and courage. Keep doing what you love and it will love you back <3

    04 . Jun . 2017

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